Darn it, for a while there I was doing so well with updating weekly. And then I think I got a new job, and well, everything started changing. I moved from Northeast to south and had an incredibly transformative time with Kari, Laurelyn and Molly. I forgot how great it was to have roommates–it was sort of shocking at first, and then really hard to mourn the loss of the past year and a half. I haven’t spoken to Monika in over a month. There is still an empty space, but I continue to move forward, and know that it is good. Last weekend my entire family was out at my parents house. I think the last time we all spent the night out there Mike and Karissa weren’t married. Since then we’ve added two kids and another boyfriend. It was incredible to have everyone be together. We had so much to celebrate with Joey coming home from studying abroad, Kelsey and Corey’s graduation from college, Kelsey turning 23, and a small preview celebration of Cole turning 1. I am so thankful I got to be home for the big weekend! Most the time I fluctuate between incredible joy and incredible sorrow in being home. Why can’t I ever just do anything normal, casual, balanced? I LOVE being home and being able to go to church, eat watermelon with Makaela (highlight of the summer!), shower regularly and eat what I want when I want. BUT I long to be able to support my staff in the field by more than just a phone call and prayers. I miss the adventure and the insane only during the summer stories. I miss being in the thick of it and watching people transform, not just hear about it. I am sure this will continue to be the case, and I will learn to be content with what I have, which is SO much! I have really appreciated learning what kind of RD I want to be, and the freedom to do it. I will make my first site visit in two weeks, I can hardly wait! I will increase my site knowledge by 50% on this trip, who is really counting? 
I am re-committing myself to this whole blog thing, so come back now, ya hear!
